My Deep Meditation

HAVE YOU AWAKEN? ENLIGHTEN?…. WHAT IS THAT??? HOW DOES IT COMES ABOUT? DID YOU ASK OR JUST LIVING LIFE BLINDLY.

Do all of us aware of our attachment?? Sometimes we dont even know our attachment. We thought We are doing very well yet we are living in unconscious. I could write this out because I AM experience it.

So have you find out what you attached to in these life?? Have you start to wonder why.. If you have not find out, then are you going to wait till the day when you are going to died??

Recently i have met an accident.. At that point of time thoughts comes into my mind within that spilt second or maybe at that point of time. It a great blessing to met this accident, i have learn something out of it. I got to know what is my real attachment. Somehow im lucky enough that im just having some bruises.

I start to wonder WHY is this thought coming out from my mind? And i found the answer to the question. So ‘AWARENESS’ to me is important. It means everything to me. Simple yet so difficult. From this incident i ahev also learn what is real letting go means. IT is not just doing LETTING GO. Its there but yet not there.

Im grateful to my friend who gaves me a bad comment and get angry with me. Why am i grateful? Because through my friend i get to practice what i have learn, AWARENESS!! Ha! Suddenly i felt so grateful. Inner Peace is the most important thing to me, not reacting but yet solving it with the right way is important to me. Im sure i did not create much bad karma this way

How much do you know ‘Letting Go Means?’

I have been meditating everyday.. being flying among the stars is a wonder experience. Its like im in the starwar flying jet, zooming in so fast, travelling. I found a star infront of me, but it was so small very very tiny yet i saw. I was flying toward it, zooming into the star.

It was so wonderful, in there, there is nothing. Nothing is there in my mind, not even a thoughts. Just know that my mind or consciousness is there. There is a wonderful place…because im totally free..

Maybe you can try it then you will believe what i have written here. Practice for the benefit of all the beings, please.

I realised that i have not been doing any sun gazing.. There is no need for me to do it anymore. Do i actually need it at the first place?? I find myself silly at times.

Yet i spend most of the time thinking how can i benefit others. How can we benefit others? Let us think about it how can we help people out there to see it and realise the beauty of real clear truth. Or are we going to let others continously sinking into the sea til they reached the bottom..

Do you know what are you doing everyday in your life?? What are you doing? Here just to live? to eat to sleep? to enjoy your time here with your friend, going pubbing? going drinking? at home with family??…

Have you really think about why are you still here, sometime happy sometime heart breaking sometime exciting etc. Find out yourself and one day answer will come to you.

Seriously im getting more and more cherish with my life here.

Have you start learning meditation…what suffering are you giving to yourself?? 

At a point of time i was really upset about myself and others.. Looking into the light up lamp, i felt the impermance of life. It brights up in that point of time but it goes off as fast also. It is the same as our precious human life.. Im one of them joining the dharma talk,.. I realised.. I cant do anything to get out of ‘this place’ this world but to stay here to practice till i have reached there.

Someone told me i do not have compassion.. My compassion is not enough. In fact i think what the person had said is very right. I have sometime asked myself do i have compassion? I think i need to have it. And i think im still learning,.. with the right intention in doing everything i think i will get to the point.

During the past few day of meditation, i came to know that our mind is a magical instrument… Our mind is wonderful teacher of ourselves. We kept reflecting and telling story, our own story that we create.

When we allow our quiet mind to be present, to see what is happening, to face and to think why it happened. When this happened our mind will teach ourselves and we will start learning it. In order to be mindfulness in our daily activties, this quiet mind must be there all the time so that it can you will be able to see what is happening. Observes and accept it is the most important things. I have read books of mindfulness in the past, then i thought, “is that so?” I thought it is only a theory that human made up. But now i know its a true thing! Im someone who loves to judge, loves all the facts and evidence so i thought this kind of things is a make up many years ago. Our knowledge from books is not enough, we must have the insight, the taste then we will know. Its like when we see a mango we know it is a mango but we do not know the taste. Then we have to cut the mango to taste it with our tongue and sense will tell you if it is sweet or sour. 

I start believing what i have read is true after my meditation. Our mind got the power of teaching ourselves but we have problem with our physical body. Why? Because we react to situation and our mind is not in quiet mode then the cycle continue and then see we are suffering. Yet, most of us do not know or aware of our own suffering..

Training of our mind and this physical body is necessary because of the accumulation of ‘Dirt’ we are not clear.

Yesterday, i when for sun gazing, it was still drizzling its has been raining for a few days already. The world climate had change someplaces are having terrible floods people are suffering terribly.

The sun told me that he is feeling sick!! Our mother earth too!! Before i can start my practice, the sun is sucking me to go nearer to him. Instead of him giving providing energy, i need to give him in turn ha!! i felt im sticking to it like a piece of magnet.

I hope both the mother earth and the sun are better now. Do have compassion for the nature the trees, sun, earth the animal they all have feeling…

Human is the most terrible and ugliest being in this world yet we are the smartest the one with all the wisdom. I find it amusing when im typing out all this because im also a human being. I see it myself we have to blame ourselves for all our own doing we created what we think the permance and then get attached, clinging on, then we there we start our desire/ craving, after that goes to ego. Ha!! wonderful wisdom we are having!!

I felt upset for the yesterday…in fact even for the past few day. It was christmas, i was having some kind of dinner with my friends. During the gathering i felt terrible, as i see the ugly human mental and behavior. My quiet mind sees it, it was like a mirror of myself, i thought im terrible like them in the past in fact even sometime now.

I was totally quiet during my dinner not wanting to accumulate bad karma. Do all the being in this world sees it?? They are living day by day not realising and learning so do i. Im still learning my still cleaning the dust that had been accumulating for how many life time till now. Only by working hard to clean i will be able to see it.

I have to train my mind, so that i will not be affected by the external situation. So that i can stay still as peace when i sees the polluted world. Not letting myself to be affected, as im quite an emotional being. Happy, Angry, Sad, Jealous etc…. Im still an being.

Can you see it?? As clear as Crystal? Others is the reflection of You, You realise that Do you understand it? Ask yourself today, the every moment you read this!!