Look, here what im trying to tell people out there is that sometimes we really cant stop things from happening. Im not a perfect person no one is perfect. Im a freak and i know myself, friends told me. Im super negative at times although im an athlete..Im a HUMAN. Im looking things at a different angle now. Sometimes we have to look at different angle, nothing to feel bad about it..because we cant stop things happening we cant change people.

How do we live on this earth applying spiritual teachings correctly to all human(ignorant human). Its not their fault because they doesnt know its just like we are in a dream state but we don’t know we are dreaming. Illusion. Im dreaming too, still not awake. I believe i can. Not only one but all my dreams i want to be awake no more dreaming.Ha…

To those who read this blog, lets be awake in our dreams. ASK FOR IT.

I felt super light everytime when im resting. I was like feather floating and i fall asleep. Not sure what happened, i felt myself wanting to vomit something out of my throat. I was disturb by the noise coming, im concious but im still sleeping. I felt somethings in the very end of my throat, a ball like stuff. When i was fully awake i closed my mouth and swallow it down instead of vomitting. But the funny thing is that, i swallow somethings and yet i cant feel it going down or to anywhere in my body.

What was that ball like stuff???…    

Walking in the street feeling like M&M with two legs. I have this big round cushion around my body making me feeling safe and comfort. This happens to me now adays, i felt able to draw energy when i want. But on the other hand i lost energy easily giving to others too… this results me keeping myself at home most of the time to store it up. My peace state of mind is totally inexplainable and being alone i felt bless and bliss to me. I can be so happy being alone at times though i enjoy the outing with my friends.

Feeling light and sometime walking on the street, i felt myself falling from somewhere.. which is so sudden that i thought i had fall from a certain height. I really wish my another body to see myself. How nice and fun it would be.

After that i did Ren Du with huge tree i choose, it was fine and great feeling.After awhile i felt that i was being suck by a huge magnet. The huge tree is going to give me a hug!! as it draw my body near to itself. That was a fun practice, but i was afraid as im not sure what is going to happen to me. I thank the tree for that experience. I think im in love with the nature…

Holding the ball in front of my heart i feel secure. Sun practice recharge me, i felt i was like an energy ball after every practice.. And i feel great. I know that i have already make friend with the universe. I face more negative thoughts now than in the past, not because i face more problem.. it because im aware of my negative thoughts.. it is great to realise that because im able to realise differentiate. 

It was a beautiful morning, and i started my practice i found myself in tune and in front of me appeared the sun with golden light in the sky. It was beautiful i have throw myself into the sky.. the Qi in my body was out with the sun. Realising that im in great peace and was smiling all the way when i was practicing.

Look, day and night is just separated in a line. Yet they make so much different on the earth..  but they are the same and equal.

My mind change, my point of view somehow change.. my relationship also had a great change/problem..sometime i did find things difficult to handle. But i believed that my higher self knows what is the best for me.. i also trust in my higher self that path will be set. I need to overcome, this stage of my life…

I used my palm to take in energy of sun. It wonder, feeling energy of sun running into my palm. Into my body.